It's hard to believe it has been a year since Jonathan died. It seems at once so recent, and yet simultaneously distant. I miss him so much, I wish he can know how much he is missed on this earth and how many lives he touched while here. The world needs more of his humor, humility, and grace.
-John Hovanec

giving thanks for Jonathan

I posted this as a comment on Patricia's post but realized that it won't be seen unless I re-post as a new post. Thank you to Patricia for bringing Jonathan to life, Patricia, David and Jonathan's loved ones for bringing him to lightness and love.

My heart is with you, Charlotte but I don't think you want to talk tonight so I'll wait. This is what I posted earlier today:

Despite my efforts to understand, I am still bruised and bewildered; it has been humbling to understand that I will never understand.

I can not think my way out of this and I have grown to accept that. If nothing else, I understand that each moment is a unique gift that I have been given; a gift that comes with no guarantee that future ones will follow and, in that understanding,

I bring Jonathan into each moment. I try to live my life with joy and gratitude in the awareness that it is precious and temporary and I don't want this gift to be wasted on me.
June 3, 2009 5:58 AM